Last Day

Today is the first day of the rest of your life... I have heard that my whole life. Well, today is the last day of the life I once knew. Tomorrow a new chapter of life begins for me. That chapter is entitled "Cancer". What a word it is! One of the scariest words in any language, right up there with tsunami, eartquake, ISIS and Satan. It is probably a lot like those other scary words. It has a very destructive power. It can topple the strongest of us all. It doesn't care who you are, how "good" you are, how intelligent or successful you are. It has been quoted as saying, "Quite frankly, my dear, I don't give a d@$n!"

I have dealt with cancer in my lifetime on many occasions. I lost my grandmother to it when I was four. I watched it ravage and devour my father when I was 12. It took my father-in-law from us. I recently lost a sweet friend to it. It is the worst thing ever... And I have it.

I always feared it. It was such a terrifying thing to me. Of course when I thought about it I thought about the many people it took from me. So the end result always seemed to be death. How sad... That when I let it invade my thoughts I let it defeat me before even having it. 

Now I do and you know what... It won't defeat me! I refuse to let it steal my joy! I refuse to let it make me sad! I refuse. And that's a true statement because I am stubborn. Like really hard-headed!

So, nah cancer, you can't have me!

I have so much to live for and fight for! I have a wonderful husband who literally can't get out of the rain without me! He needs me y'all!! He can't write a check or pay a bill online! He can't cook chicken and rice and sure as heck can't buy feminine products for our daughter! He doesn't understand the importance of binge watching Gossip Girl or Friends and has no clue who is hot in Hollywood and who is not!!

I have a son who needs his momma to remind him how to treat his new bride and give him tips on how to cook and do various a sundry things to keep her smiling!! He needs me y'all! He has no clue why Ulta is important or what piece of McCarty is important! He needs me to give him tips on teaching children and how to handle their sixth grade minds!

I have a beautiful daughter who needs my advise. She needs my shoulder to cry on when friends are forgetful or cruel! She needs trips to TJ Maxx and Barnes and Noble and needs someone who understands the urgency of both!! When her heart gets broken she needs me to whoop some tail!

My momma needs me, too! So does the rest of my family! Life would be dull without Monica!

And my friends! Lawd have mercy what would they do without my craziness? Life would be boring without my random texts or posts. They would be bored without me to point out what's wrong with everyone around us!

So as of tomorrow I will wage a war against what some may call a Goliath, but I will call it a bothersome gnat! Life will be different after tomorrow but by cracky I am determined it will be better and brighter!

I am confident in my faith and so thankful for it! God has got this, I plan to ride on His coat tails and watch Him work!

In the immortal words of Ginny Owens, from her song If You Want Me To
"But you never said it would be easy, You only said I'd never go alone."

Love to all!

Monica